when i was a kid

When i was a kid
I was eager to be an adult
to live on my own

When i was a kid
I dream big
to be a doctor
to own a big house
with swimming pools
to own a luxury cars
like in the drama

When i was a kid
I couldn't care less
about what people thought
and that--

doesn't bother me

Now that I've grown up

why is everything so different?

Now that I've grown up

why i don't wanna live on my own?

Now that I've grown up

why i don't have 

any dream nor ambition?

Now that I've grown up

why do i care so much

about peoples' saying

and

why does it bother so much?